The daily life of a movie director who gets angry at his wife's abandonment, goes to a psychosomatic medicine clinic, and uses a sauna to wash away the sludge in his mind.
19 years of marriage. Beaten and abused by her wife, toyed with by her two children, jealous of other people's successes - but still have to live as a husband, a father, a man!
Received the Japan Academy Award for Best Screenplay for "100 Yen Love" and the Best Screenplay Award for "Kigeki Aisai Monogatari" at the Tokyo International Film Festival. The sad and funny daily life of Shin Adachi, who is currently attracting a lot of attention as a director and screenwriter.
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I was interviewed by a magazine called "Mail order life" about "Anti-distraction" life. I don't know where you got the sniff out from, but I received a request for an interview from the editorial department who got information that I couldn't throw away my VHS, picture books from childhood, and contact books from elementary school. I even came to my run-down house and took pictures with junk.
The elimination boom (has the boom already ended and taken root?) is causing trouble. My wife, who already throws away things more and more, jumped on the trend of throwing away my clothes, shoes, books, scripts, glasses, pants, socks, and cats without permission. Once my shoes were gone, and since my feet were the same size, I wore my wife's shoes for about a month until she bought me new ones. There was a picture book called "Sentakukaa-chan," in which she washes everything without being asked to do so, but in the case of my wife, it is "Sedanri-kaachan."
The reason for throwing it away is unbelievable, "Because it's a hindrance." Huh, cats too!?
In the interview, I thought I would talk about anti-disposal, but I don't have a proper idea about it like Hiroyuki Itsuki, so I ended up just swearing at my wife.
By the way, the reason why I can't throw away my VHS is because I spent 15,000 yen, which is quite expensive for a junior high school student, to watch "Straw Dog" (directed by Sam Peckinpah), which I really wanted to see when I was a junior high school student. Because I can't forget the memory of buying it on mail order. VHS was expensive back then.
I, a junior high school student, wondered what kind of violent images I would see in the slogan, "Depiction of intense violence..." and sent a registered cash envelope for two weeks, waiting impatiently. I had a strong desire to see the movie.) I honestly didn't understand "Straw Dog" when it finally arrived, but I didn't understand it, but I thought it was interesting. My body remembers the feeling of immorality of lying to myself, and I can't help but throw away the VHS.
Other non-disposable items are usually associated with memories. However, the biggest reason why I don't give up is that when I see my wife doing it, I have no idea what kind of effect it will have. No matter how much my wife gets rid of it, nothing has changed, such as the low boiling point of irritation and anger (rather, I feel bad for my body because I throw it away while angry), and the room is quickly messed up. If you say something like, "There's no point in getting rid of it!", you'll get the usual utterly boring line that the scriptwriter is too cold to write. "I'm going to cut you off," he said.
*A word from my wife
Definitely throw anything away. I won't deny it, but when it comes to cats, my husband picked up two cats just after they were born when I was having a tough time right after giving birth to my first child, and my hair was standing on end. When I gave them milk and they were dying from lack of sleep, I asked the friendly veterinarian in my neighborhood who had neutered my two puppies to put up a "recruitment notice" sign, and a lovely young lady took them in. (The person still sends me pictures of the two). I didn't throw it away!
Starting in the morning, I will go around the suburbs of Tokyo for location scouting for a movie scheduled to be filmed next month. It was over by noon, so I ate delicious ramen and drank beer from noon. When I got home, I silently ate the extra-thick eho-maki that my wife had made, facing the direction of the eho (I conveyed all my wishes in my heart).
I was interviewed by "Weekly Taishu" at my home and talked about "It's not about wanting or not wanting to do it." The veteran cameraman was a very unique person, and he kept talking to me.
My daughter's cram school three-person interview online at night. Both my wife and I participated, so it was a four-party interview, and the cram school teacher was smiling wryly.
My daughter is frustrated that she can't answer any questions from her cram school teacher. When the teacher said, "Let's spend a little more time studying at home in order to aim for the school of our choice. Let's do it for at least 90 minutes."
It is felt by both children and adults today that they immediately say, "That's impossible." Including yourself, of course. It's wonderful to be able to say "impossible!"
For the time being, she puts herself on the shelf and is disappointed in her daughter who does not show the attitude of "Let's do our best!" Looking at it from the eyes of my parents, I thought that even if I thought, "I'll do my best," I might be embarrassed and couldn't show it on the outside... but the teacher at the cram school supported me with all my strength. I'm surprised by the mentality that it's easy to say "impossible" even though I'm there.
After the online interview, I was frustrated and almost had a parent-child fight, so I quickly got out of my daughter's room to look away and watched "Mare of Easttown" (directed by Craig Zobel). she's so funny Starring and Executive Producer Kate Winslet. Although it has nothing to do with the story, I feel that it is unreasonable to use only fixed-form people as characters in dramas. It is natural that there are many types of people in the world, and this drama is doing that natural thing as a matter of course.
From noon to evening, rehearsals for the movie to be shot next month. On the way, I learned that Kenta Nishimura, a novelist, had passed away. Kenta Nishimura was the only author I would read whenever a new work came out, so I was shocked or shaken for a moment.
I love the series written by Mr. Nishimura called "Akie Mono", and my dream is to make it into a movie someday. But I'm sure it will be filmed in a place that has nothing to do with me. I want to try it myself! In the original work that I have been doing business with, most of the plans did not go through, and when it came to competition, I lost. If Nishimura-san's Akie monogatari were to be made into a film, I could see myself complaining, "Why did you do it like this..." when I went to see it. But his work is highly rated. I don't care about that, and I'm going to complain all the time.
After watching a movie in the morning, I head to my high school classes. There are only three classes left. Talk to each student today.
This high school is a normal metropolitan high school (credit system), but there are many children who did not attend school in elementary and junior high school, and children who are a little unfamiliar with today's society. I just don't get used to it). My wife's high school basketball advisor was involved in starting up a school that would actively accept such children. Why don't you give it a try?" was the beginning of my teaching.
To be honest, when I received the invitation, I thought, "Well, that's troublesome...". Even a teacher at a scenario school can't give a good class, and in a normal high school, I felt like I had to prepare something for class and create something like a lesson plan, so I thought it was "troublesome". It was. I'm not very good at preparing for that kind of thing, and I feel a lot of stress. Just hearing the word "resume" makes me want to run away. However, my wife says, "Let's talk about it." I started from (My wife overturned my words about the second time, severely denouncing my lack of common sense, and to be honest, I'm pretty exhausted).
Because it was such a school, I had a preconceived notion that the students of this school were better at detecting the lies and deceptions of adults than those of the so-called "ordinary school." This is because I have the impression that children who do not go to school, who are not familiar with society and find it difficult to live, have been bombarded with pleasant words from adults.
So, even when we were talking, I felt like someone could see through me. If I can't talk to my students even a little bit, I tend to think, "Oh, this kid doesn't want to talk much."
When I was in elementary, junior high, and high school, I was very careful when I was talking to my teachers, and since we didn't talk about our true feelings anyway, I just wanted them to be released as soon as possible. Applying that experience, I thought that this child would want her to quickly finish talking about her and release her, so I tried to do so. But my wife puts it off. Moreover, I feel that I am procrastinating by saying terribly boring and useless things. I sometimes get irritated by my wife, saying, "Students see through that too, can't you understand! Read the atmosphere!" I realize how shallow I am that I can't just apply my own small experience because each person is different.
Even though I had come to this realization and was humbly reconsidering myself, my wife pointed out that I was not the student. (Or rather, it's normal) Sometimes we get into fights. I feel that the teaching profession is a tough profession in which you can only see children for a limited number of years, and during that time you will be ruffled by a lot of despair and a small amount of hope.
I go to Nakano Broadway with my son to buy figurines. Her daughter also wants to go to Mandarake. I went into a pasta shop for lunch, and my daughter asked me to give her a bite of my son's pasta. I thought it was noisy.
After that, my son looks for a Jason or Leatherface figure but can't find it. It's completely obsessed. I came here today because I couldn't wait at Mercari, but there's nothing I don't have.
After wandering around for a few hours, I finally found Boogieman and bought it out of glee. My son, who only watches horror movies, now desperately wants a horror character doll.
My son, who was going to school on Saturday, came home with a stupid voice saying, "Yay! The class is closed!" It seems that there are 4 absentees in the class, so it will be closed from today until Tuesday, so don't leave the house! He said. The thought of not being able to work at home at all makes me feel a bit dizzy...
Work while watching movies with my son who is at home due to class closure. When her wife is at home, her son's wife attachment begins, and when her wife is not next to her at all times, she throws a tantrum, so at such times her wife leaves home quickly.
I saw "The Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2", "Friday the 13th" and "Don't Breathe". I feel like there was once a tendency to make people into murderers or psychopaths if they only watched horror movies, and I don't know if they still exist, but I think people like that are almost innate. I am deeply unhappy.
My wife, who I think is innate, but she thinks it can be acquired, doesn't want her son to watch horror movies. It is said that when he sees a depiction of great eroticism (such as a horse splitting vertically), a strange drug-like stimulant is secreted from the brain, and the pleasure of it is overwhelming, and as a result, it leads to addiction. I wonder if that's true, but anyway, my son only watches horror now, so it can't be helped (and the occasional adventure or action).
Besides, since I'm dealing with my son and my wife is going out somewhere, I don't want to show her erotic videos, so I'm in a light fight mode.
I've seen "The Devil's Sacrifice 2" many times, but I was scared when I saw "Friday the 13th" again (Jason's mother is really scary, and the images are vivid). When I saw him in elementary school, I fell in love with the older sister who survived until the end, but even now, he was still a very cute actor. According to Wikipedia, the actor named Adrian King quit his acting career after being targeted by a stalker after the movie was released.
My son was sitting on my lap all the time watching (it's already 3rd grade, so it's quite heavy...) His heart rate was not odd, and I was expecting Jason's reaction from the lake near the end. jumped up. I'm so happy with that reaction. I'm sure it's just as addictive to scare people as it is to make them laugh.
At night, my daughter brings a school-issued tablet into her room and is doing something all the time. When she asks, "What are you doing?"
My daughter usually doesn't do any tablet study at home, but she always does tablet study only during the smartphone ban period one week before the regular test. I don't think she is studying at all. I didn't study at all myself, so I can't believe my child at times like this, but I'm frustrated because I can't find the evidence. I'd like to get a hold of the tail somehow, but I don't know how to look at the history because I'm weak with machines.
I went to the side of my wife who had fallen asleep in my son's room (my son's room is our husband's and my son's bedroom) and muttered, "My daughter is suspicious. It's definitely suspicious." Interfering bastard! Her wife gets very cranky when her sleep is disturbed, but she doesn't know the extent of the interference.
My son, who was reading manga next to my wife, burst into laughter. My son always laughs when the couple fights. I thought I had no choice but to laugh and let it go, but no matter how much my son disturbed my sleep, my wife would get mad at me because I didn't care about my son, so I was pissed off too! Then, I will happily enter the mode whether I will go out stubbornly. I tried not to give in to my wife's angry voice, so I lay down on my side and yelled louder than ever, and my wife said, "You, get out of this house right now! You're hated by the whole family." !!!!!!!!" and tried to kick me out of the futon.
At that time, by chance, my wife's wrist caught my high nose. It worked pretty well, and I also had a lot of complaints, so I exploded without fail and threw the Shukan Bunshun that was on her wife's bedside against the wall. Covering his painful nose with one hand, I hit him about seven times. Once, when my wife got mad at me and my three children at the same time, I slammed a number of plates into them and broke them. It's gone. My son, who usually doesn't get so excited, was taken aback for a moment, but he closed his eyes, suppressed his ears, and started crying.
When you think, "Oh, I did it...", it's too late. Her wife looked at me with a look of contempt, and she spit out, "You're a DV bastard. You don't care how much you hurt your child. Just die."
Even if you say that, it's probably DV in front of you, and in that sense, I think both of them are DV bastards, but I didn't try any more resistance and left the room silently.
Maybe this is something called menopause. Unable to control his anger, he became an exorcist, as if possessed by an evil spirit.
Even though I hate myself so much, I can't get rid of my victim consciousness. I think so too, although in my case today I may be a victim of the wrong side.)
“Is it my fault…? I was there.
But no one hears my heart's cry, no one hears it. Overwhelmed by loneliness, I go to bed crying alone. I didn't get a nosebleed, but it was definitely a bloody Valentine.
wife and high school teacher. Before that, we always have lunch together, so even though I don't like lunch because of the nasty atmosphere since Bloody Valentine's Day the day before yesterday, I want to make up quickly, so as if nothing had happened, I said, "Today, I'm going to have class and lunch." Before, would you like to go see a movie in the morning?" If you're the only one who eats delicious food, your heart will boil over."
I wondered if he wanted to eat something delicious because he was so responsible for me, but he didn't say that.
I go to see "The Third Honesty" (directed by Isamu Nohara) by myself. Are we guys that stupid!? That's what I thought, but when I think about what I said and did the day before yesterday, it might be no good.
After that, I went to the store where my wife had been before. Her wife didn't say a word during lunch. I still eat it, so it's amazing or what...
After leaving the store, he said only one word, "I'll take you to a psychosomatic medicine clinic." I'm so outraged all the time, why should I be taken away just because it happened to me once?! That's what I thought, but I secretly thought I should vent my dissatisfaction with my wife there anyway, so I just replied, "I understand."
From 9:30 to my wife and mental clinic. 1 hour wait, 30 minutes teacher and couple interview.
First, my wife said, ``The other day, this person showed anger that he had never shown before, throwing books at the wall for 10 minutes in the middle of the night, and in front of his child who was trying to sleep. Until then, even if I got angry, I wasn't the type to get angry like that, and I didn't do it in front of my children. I thought it was bad, so I brought him here because I couldn't take it all by myself." Well, that method was in a special magazine about calming anger, and I unintentionally imitated it. It was so painful that I couldn't help but get so excited." When I said that, my wife looked at me and made a face like, "You're here...". As a result, they became dissatisfied with each other.
In the end, I was told, "Since we are a psychosomatic medicine department, it would be better for Mr. Adachi to go to a couples counselor." I was very satisfied and said, "It's just as I thought! I want to go to couple counseling! If the whole world had a rule that people had to change partners and children once a month, the world would be at peace and there would be no more wars." I feel like it's going to disappear." I told my wife about a thousand times, but for some reason I started talking about it again, but she ignored me and quickly left.
* From my wife
Lots of objections. The open mouth does not close.
In front of my son just before he fell asleep, I shouted out loud, "Take care of me! Recognize me! Be more kind to me!" My son, who is sensitive to hearing and who does DV acts, holds his ears intently and ends up spilling tears.
I'm too busy with work, and even if my family doesn't turn out the way I want, I can't handle it anymore. I can't take it. I have no choice but to send him to a psychiatrist.
However, he seemed to be enjoying himself after going there, and said, "Next time, I'm going to couple counseling!" It is becoming a real Kanta drawn by Mr. Kenta Nishimura. I want to say that you don't have to be Kanta, so you should be Mr. Nishimura. Oh, are you with me? But I also liked Kenta Nishimura's novels. Ah, so that's why I ended up with this kind of husband... Gassho.
Early in the morning, I found my son searching on YouTube for words that are difficult to pronounce, such as "oppai". Of course it means "breasts". While being found by me and feeling embarrassed, I forced myself to excuse myself, saying, "Mommy said it was good."
There are mothers and fathers of my son and classmates who are lamenting that they are watching terrible videos at the age of 3, but the internet is really a lawless zone for sex. Even if I put security at home, I still get even worse videos from junior high school students at churches and other hangouts. There is no choice but to deal with sex education at home and school, but to be honest, I don't know what to do as I haven't received good sex education at school or at home.
For the time being, I hurriedly read "Where did I come from?" that my mother read to me when I was a child. She explained about sex, what not to do if the other person said she didn't like it, and talked about important zones, but honestly I don't know what else to say.
When I warned him a little about "Oppai Search," my son said, "Dad writes erotic books, you know."
After that, head to Ginza and rehearse with elementary and junior high school students. When I was chatting on the way, I thought about asking him about his son's sexuality, but he got excited when he talked about Valentine's Day. Seven boys from 5th grade to 2nd grade came to the rehearsal. However, there were only two children who received chocolate, and they were all in agony.
By the way, when I consulted that my daughter, who is in her second year of junior high school, spends two hours using a school-supplied tablet in her room every day, she said, "I'm definitely watching YouTube with the security off (laughs)." After all."
Last night, my son and his wife had promised to go see "Uncharted" (directed by Ruben Fleischer) at 8:50, but suddenly I was able to go too (the schedule flew off, so I said, "I'm going too! I asked my wife to make a reservation), and when I woke up in the morning, I said, "I'm looking forward to 'Uncharted' ~ Daddy's going too ~" and stroked my son's cheek, "Eh! Mom and I are good together!"
After all, it was said, "If Dad goes, I won't go!" My son and I were thinking of going to the movies together, but maybe I couldn't control my feelings because it was so unexpected that I would go with him. However, my wife became displeased, saying, "Even though I'm not here every night, I'm trying to close the distance at top speed in the morning!"
I have no choice but to leave the house with my wife at 8:15 and watch "Uncharted". My son talks fluently while watching a movie, so I reserved a seat in the second row from the front so as not to disturb the people around me, so it's hard to see. And it's dubbed.
It would be futile for me and my wife to watch the movie that I chose for my son. When the movie ended, it was sunny outside, so I gently asked his wife, "Would you like to go for a walk and have lunch?" "Eh, alone?" "Of course not. Don't come with me." I pretended not to and followed.
If you bring a movie ticket stub to the super public bath near the movie theater, you can get a discount and rent a swimsuit for free. When I was on good terms with his wife, he would often come after the movies.
If you rent a swimsuit, you can enter the mixed bathing open-air bath and mixed sauna together, so when I suggested it, they said they didn't like it, but I persisted and managed to do it. In the mixed bath and mixed sauna, we talked about our recent dissatisfaction with each other and our children, and although it didn't wash away with sweat, it felt a little refreshed. I also lost 1.5kg.
However, after that, the dark beer and half & half I drank after a long time were unexpectedly delicious, but I ended up eating a tempura set meal and a tonkatsu set meal (both with large portions of rice). Only my wife stayed until night to get rid of the daily fatigue, and I went home to make dinner for the children. Good husband, right? I held back what I wanted to say.
* From my wife
In the open-air bath and sauna where silent bathing is recommended, my husband was talking in a high-pitched voice all the time. It hurt to look at her surroundings, but her husband's sludge seems to be refreshing. On the contrary I accumulated.
Thursday, February 24th
Depart early in the morning and go to Hida for location scouting by car with the staff. However, it was a heavy snowfall, and the snow in Hida City was over two meters high. The movie is set in spring, and I'm very worried about how long this snow will remain.
Gifu Prefecture was also in the anti-pandemic period, so I couldn't go out to drink and spent the night quietly. And the war between Russia and Ukraine has started, but I'm too busy with my job and my family. I'm sure there are many people like that. This may be the case even in countries that are at war.
Before, Tamori said something like, "As long as humans have the feeling of 'love', war will never go away." There are many reasons why wars will not go away, but almost everyone thinks that wars will never go away.
"I don't want to die. I'm scared. I'm against war."
We got back from Hida late last night, and today we have rehearsals from morning till evening. tired.
Head to Ikebukuro Cinema Rosa at night. From today, the "rehearsal hall" is open to the public. It's a one-week limited late show, and I think the screening will be over by the time this diary is released, but I'd be happy if as many people as possible could come and see it.
My daughter has returned to baseball from this day. Until now, she was worried about relationships because of club team baseball, but now she is worried about relationships because of school club activities. No matter where you go, you can't escape from human relationships, so I want you to wear toughness. As for baseball, taking a full two months off, participating once every two weeks, and returning on the condition that no games will be played makes me want to say, "Huh? What the hell? Then stop!" It may be tough in a sense.
Other movies I saw in theaters this month were "Noise," "The Aftermath of the Giant Monster," "Blue Bayou," "Stand By Me," "West Side Story," "Someone's Flower," and "I Just Remembered." "Ghostbusters / Afterlife" "Yumemiru Elementary School"
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【profile】
Born in Tottori prefecture in 1972. After graduating from the Japan Film School, he studied under Shinji Somai. After working as an assistant director and acting as a theater director, he began writing scenarios. For this work, he won the 17th Scenario Writers Association "Ryuzo Kikushima Award" and the 39th Japan Academy Award for Best Screenplay. In addition, as a screenwriter, the 38th Creative TV Drama Award winning work "Sachi and Mayu" (4th "Ichikawa Moriichi Screenplay Award") "Uso Yao" "Shino-chan can't say her own name" "Kodomo Shokudou” and many others. He made his directorial debut with 14 no Yoru. "Comedy Aisai Monogatari" directed, written and screenplay won the Best Screenplay Award at the Tokyo International Film Festival. Currently preparing a new work. His publications include Comedy Aisai Monogatari, 14 no Yoru, and Yowamushi Nikki. The latest publication is "It's not a story about wanting or not wanting" (published by Futabasha).